likeagoodson | Vatheon Drop "Post"

[ Mostly for Johnny and Maddie's benefit. He put this together several weeks after he arrived in Vatheon. ]

Master,

It shouldn't have taken you long to find this, and if you have, I've somehow found a way out. I cannot tell you how. Even why. But I thought it best to prepare...something in the event I disappeared.

I know that I haven't been just in my actions lately. I have not seen you, like I should. I have not confided in you. We constantly avoid each other, and I'm not sure if it's out of habit or necessity that it has continued the way it has. I know what you must think of me, and I want to assure you that it's not true.

I could never hate you.

If anything, I'm already lost to the hate I feel for myself and for what it is I've become. I'm drowning, and no one would accept someone like me no matter how much I try to redeem myself. Perhaps it's good that I've gone first without you. There are only so many reasons to continue on.

Anyway.

Please give my regards to Miss Maddie and tell her I'm happy to have known her. If there is anything that I have, the both of you are more than welcome to it. All I ask is that you keep this letter and remember me. I pray that you take care of yourself in my absence.

Sincerely Yours,

Charley

PS. Don't be reckless. ~~I love you.~~ I'll be waiting.